Waiting

Well, I started this blog , but I haven't really been good at posting. Something always seems to come first.

This has been a quiet, yet very good week for me. Nicky left on a couple of trips last Thursday and returns tomorrow. So, I have been home " alone" since then. I really haven't ventured out much. I have been doing stuff at home and spent a lot of time with the Lord. It has turned out to be a kind of " spiritual retreat" time for me. I needed it. I have been asking God too many questions lately and doing a lot of complaining. I think , in my desire to see his hand at work, I became impatient, pouting, etc. You know the mood! It is Satan's perfect tool! Well, this week has been good. God and I have spent a lot of time together talking and me just listening. If you are like me, you may tend to always be asking God, " Why and When and you fill in the blank". Whatever your blank may be , it isn't a listening mode or a praising mode.

Today, I was catching up on friends blogs and came across this great poem that had been posted by a cherished friend, Arica. I want to share it with you.



WAIT
Don't we all love to hear Jesus answer us with "wait?" That little word with so much impact -- makes me want to scream sometimes! There are times I wish Jesus would tell me "yes" or "no." It would be so much easier to deal with -- and move on, if necessary. Yet, He still tells me to wait (sometimes using the gentler version - "Just hold on.). And so I wait...not always with the patience I should. My roommate Emily & I were discussing this a few weeks ago. She shared a poem with me that had recently been shared with her. I hope it blesses & encourages you as much as it has me...and helps you to see the value of "wait." ( Arica's comment )

WAITby Russell Kelfer

Desperately, helplessly, longingly, I cried;
Quietly, patiently, lovingly, God replied.
I pled and I wept for a clue to my fate...the Master so gently said, "Wait."
"Wait? you say wait?" my indignant reply."Lord, I need answers, I need to know why!"
Is your hand shortened? Or have you not heard? By faith I have asked, and I'm claiming your Word.
My future and all to which I relate hangs in the balance and you tell me to Wait?"
I'm needing a 'yes', a go-ahead sign.Or even a 'no,' to which I'll resign.
You promised, dear Lord, that if we believe, We need but to ask, and we shall receive.
Lord, I've been asking, and this is my cry: I'm weary of asking! I need a reply.
Then quietly, softly, I learned of my fate as my Master replied again, "Wait."
So I slumped in my chair, defeated and taut, and grumbled to God,
So, I'm waiting...for what?"
He seemed then to kneel, and His eyes met with mine... and He tenderly said,
"I could give you a sign. I could shake the heavens and darken the sun. I could raise the dead and cause mountains to run.
I could give all you seek and pleased you would be.
You'd have what you want, but you wouldn't know Me.
You'd not know the depth of My love for each saint.
You'd not know the power that I give to the faint.
You'd not learn to see through clouds of despair; you'd not learn to trust just by knowing I'm there.
You'd not know the joy of resting in Me when darkness and silence are all you can see.
You'd never experience the fullness of love when the peace of My spirit descends like a dove.
You would know that I give, and I save, for a start, But you'd not know the depth of the beat of My heart.
The glow of My comfort late into the night,the faith that I give when you walk without sight.
The depth that's beyond getting just what you ask From an infinite God who makes what you have last.
You'd never know should your pain quickly flee, what it means that My grace is sufficient for thee.
Yes, your dearest dreams overnight would come true, but oh, the loss if I lost what I'm doing in you.
So, be silent, my child, and in time you will see that the greatest of gifts is to truly know me.
And though oft My answers seem terribly late, My most precious answer of all is still "WAIT".


I am not saying the waiting time is easy, but I think I will at least let it be a time to really see God and who He is and what he desire for me. You know, make the best of it. It is kind of like waiting in a line and reading a book at the same time! So , I think I will open my book and read! God, show me you in every work I read.